I originally entitled this self esteem and was advised that this title wasn’t allowed?
The late Louise Hay advised people to love themselves:
But so many of us don’t.
(regardless of age group: sex or race.)
One of the few good psychologists
to counsel myself as if I were counselling someone else.
I get annoyed with myself because I cannot do things:
I was almost always able to push through panic attacks which I have had most of my life:
(my PTSD was diagnosed until I was almost fifty)
These days I have trouble doing this.
I get mad at myself :-
I would like to have been able to drive to my daughters to help her after she had surgery on her feet:
I wasn’t able to fly to North Queensland last year for my son’s fiftieth:
I didn’t attend my youngest granddaughter’s 21st (a few years ago):
I am often unable to push through pain to do my house work and there are things that I physically cannot do.
Some days I cannot even walk the dog 😦
I have had to refuse to do clairvoyant readings.
Today I counselled myself that I am doing the best I can.
I suffer with osteoarthritis, myalgia: adhesions: nerve pain and medical and surgical mistakes:
This century I have had over a decade of constant pain and sleep deprivation.
(Allergic to morphine and Tramadol)
What motivated me to write this is that last night I slept for four hours (straight) and feel so much better.
I know many people don’t like themselves because they don’t fit the cultural norm of slim and attractive:
I understand this:
Last century I remember someone who was disfigured was told that “it is not what you look like but who you are on the inside.”
I said to him “That’s crap: people treat and judge you by the way you look.”
The 1990’s I had an hysterectomy (which I should not have had) and I put on weight:
plus my health went downhill because of sleep deprivation (work related).
People treated me with contempt:
including doctors and specialists.
At the beginning of this century I lost weight and people treated me with respect.
Including the same doctors and specialists.
My Dad always said “Count your blessings.”
And I do.
Have a great day
and be kind to non humans