RE INCARNATION

Watch the second video –fast forward one hour and nine minutes to Gwen McDonald –this is the most amazing

As you can see this is an old book of mine:

Australian psychologist and hypnotherapist, Peter Ramster created a television documentary in 1981 He also wrote a book that was published in 1980 Called “The Truth About Reincarnation” where he regresses subjects to past lives for which  he is able to check details.

The following video is an hour and three quarters

If you don’t want to watch it all fast forward an hour and nine minutes to Gwen McDonald –this is the most amazing

I have experienced many past life regressions am only going to share the first one and a funny one:

The first past life regression that I experienced was at a psychic group at Kent Town SA. (I think it was 1980)

Instead of a guided meditation the man running this group took us back to our very last life.

Only four of us achieved this and everyone else complained that it was supposed to be a meditation.

I wrote mine down in an exercise book as soon as I got home.  I kept this book for years but it disappeared last century when my 2nd husband moved out. Pity!

I still remember much of the information from this regression.

I was an American Marine in Borneo either during or just after the Second World War. At the time I had no idea the war went to Borneo. I checked all the information that I could in the library. I also didn’t like the “Yanks” back then so had no desire to be one. I have since visited the USA and know how friendly and welcoming Americans are.

I died when the b12 I was in (I was the gunnner; not the pilot) was shot down.

(This sensation of spinning downwards to my death was brought back to me in my present life when a pilot friend took me up in a Victor (two seater aeroplane)  cut the motors and spun the plane downwards without warning me. -He was trying to show off.)

 I was 19; male and the middle child of three boys. My name was Harold. I saw my home but not my parents. 

As I was born this life in February 1949 I would have come straight back after I died. But knowing that I do not understand the nature of reality and accepting that linear time is an illusion anything is possible.

A friend of mine took me to a past life.

I was walking toward a well in a cobblestone courtyard.

As soon as I appeared everyone else scattered.

Immediately I came back to waking reality and couldn’t stop laughing.

I said “I don’t know who I was but they didn’t like me.” (I may have been a leper?)

FOLLOWING IS A PAST LIFE REGRESSION/MEDITATION

If you don’t “see” just trust the concepts that come into your head

I have used this “meditation” with my Wiccan groups

and my psychic development groups

I believe the regression is possible because linear time is an illusion

I asked “clairvoyantly” about “the meaning of life” which strangely enough isn’t 42 (Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy)

The answer I got was more a concept than words but translated:

I was asked if I could conceptualize NO LINEAR TIME and when I said “No” I was told that “they” couldn’t explain.

Namaste

I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from chopra.com One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”

 In the following book I hope to help those who wish to develop their clairvoyant abilities.

In “The Clairvoyant Experiences Of A Sceptic” I told a few of my clairvoyant experiences.

Listening to others similar stories made me realize that

it is so much better if you can have these experiences first hand.

Kung fu tz  (Confucius) say “Perseverance prospers”

So don’t give up – you will succeed

And use the recorded meditations in my blog

The clairvoyant Experiences of a Sceptic is not a literary masterpiece

but a true story. I majored in sociology not literature

I dont know the meaning of life:

nor understand the nature of reality:

I do know physical death is not the end.

And there are so many amazing stories omitted so as not to break client confidentiality.

The second part I wrote as therapy and had not intended to include.

It wasn’t included in the original l publication

( I started shaking when I tried to write about the abuse so it is badly written and a great deal omitted)

 A SHORT STORY ABOUT HEALING THE  BLUE PLANET

I wrote and published this sci fi short story a few years ago (under the above title) when the human population was only 7.4 billion:

(1st published 4th April 2017)

It is now  8 billion.

Our cultural norms and the Protestant Ethic are causing the extinction of all life.

I wrote this as social satire and sympathetic magic

I realize my writing style doesn’t fit what people expect

My excuse –I majored in sociology not literature 😛

I wanted to put my idea that humans are not indigenous to the planet

A few lines  from this short story:

“Most humans think that those who live in harmony with the environment are primitive and inferior. Actually they don’t think.

They just mindlessly conform to what those in power and their entertainment media tell them.

 They are really stupid but consider themselves superior to all other life forms because they talk:

They think if something or someone doesn’t talk they don’t understand.

They thoughtlessly destroy everything. They call some creatures vermin, when humans are the vermin. They kill insects and destroy all the trees despite the fact that insects and trees are essential.

And everything literally goes down the drain polluting the oceans instead of nourishing other life.”

LIFE AFTER DEATH

WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW

I have several friends who don’t believe in clairvoyance or surviving death

On the rare occasions I mention a clairvoyant experience that amazed me they just look at me with disdain or make some comment implying that I am either making it up or delusional

Although I dislike being “called” a liar (honesty is important to me)

these are true friends                    

 I don’t need them to believe me – I know it to be true

 so I tolerate their attitude.

People tend to believe that a belief in God and heaven is necessary for a belief in an “afterlife”

Surviving death isn’t synonymous with a religious belief.

We do not understand the nature of reality.

(or at least I don’t)

It appears we exist in an alternate reality when we are “not here”! In this reality the electrons are apparently moving at a different speed around the protons and neutrons so it is out of phase. ( This is my very limited understanding of quantum physics)

Another misconception is that people have to be “earth bound” to communicate with the living:

NOT SO!

I asked “clairvoyantly” about “the meaning of life” which strangely enough isn’t 42 (Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy)

The answer I got was more a concept than words but translated:

I was asked if I could conceptualize NO LINEAR TIME and when I said “No” I was told that “they” couldn’t explain.

We may all be in a huge holodeck:

As suggested by Star Trek Next Generation —

And  “What The Bleep”

“Ship In A Bottle” season six — Star Trek Next Geneeration

In the “special features” of What the “Bleep” they mention that Professor WilliamTiller gives the mathematical constructs of a hologram that we “are” living in.

(William A. Tiller is a professor emeritus of materials science and engineering at Stanford University)

Until the following I suspected clairvoyance was wishful thinking and vivid imagination

The incident that convinced me that clairvoyance was a reality happened at work. I was a student nurse at Strathmont Centre.  I was washing dishes with a male staff nurse. We didn’t have kitchen hands in those days.  Kym was six feet tall and rather heavy set and had long blonde hair. A man (deceased) flashed in (when I see or hear things they flash in a fraction of a second) He had Kym’s high forehead and similar features but wore a suit with a crepe ribbon and a cross and had a short back and sides haircut and dark hair.

I asked Kym if his father was a minister. He asked me why and initially I would not answer. I eventually told him what I saw and Kym told me that it was his uncle. He asked me what denomination his uncle was.

I did not know.

After Kym left the kitchen I asked his uncle, whom I could no longer “see”, what he had died of.  The words were that fast all I could make out was sclerosis. Because we were with the intellectually disabled I thought “tubular sclerosis?” Then I realized it was multiple sclerosis.

 When we were having a tea break Kym told me that his uncle died of multiple sclerosis. I was amazed and said that his uncle had “told” me this!

Kym said “Get more”! I informed him that I couldn’t.

But I saw panama hats and monkeys. I said “He was a missionary in South America” Kym said “Yes”. I then saw masks and a jungle and said he was also a missionary in New Guinea. Kym told me this wasn’t so.  When Kym came to work the next day, he said that his mother had confirmed that her brother was a missionary in New Guinea. This showed that I wasn’t just reading Kim’s mind.

NAMASTE

I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from chopra.com One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”

THANKING OUR BODY PLUS CHAKRA BALANCING

This is from  a meditation group that I attended in 1980 – the man running the group played the tape and I was able to get a copy

Unfortunately I no longer have this tape so cannot credit the lady who first recorded it

Me with my granddog 😛

Most chakra balancing that you will find online start at the base and work up

This one which I have been using since 1978 starts at the crown and works downward ending with “grounding”

 The sound is poor on this (don’t know why) 

so you will have to turn it up -sorry

Namaste

I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from chopra.com One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”

RE INCARNATION

Watch the second video –fast forward one hour and nine minutes to Gwen McDonald –this is the most amazing

As you can see this is an old book of mine:

Australian psychologist and hypnotherapist, Peter Ramster created a television documentary in 1981 He also wrote a book that was published in 1980 Called “The Truth About Reincarnation” where he regresses subjects to past lives for which  he is able to check details.

The following video is an hour and three quarters

If you don’t want to watch it all fast forward an hour and nine minutes to Gwen McDonald –this is the most amazing

I have experienced many past life regressions am only going to share the first one and a funny one:

The first past life regression that I experienced was at a psychic group at Kent Town SA. (I think it was 1980)

Instead of a guided meditation the man running this group took us back to our very last life.

Only four of us achieved this and everyone else complained that it was supposed to be a meditation.

I wrote mine down in an exercise book as soon as I got home.  I kept this book for years but it disappeared last century when my 2nd husband moved out. Pity!

I still remember much of the information from this regression.

I was an American Marine in Borneo either during or just after the Second World War. At the time I had no idea the war went to Borneo. I checked all the information that I could in the library. I also didn’t like the “Yanks” back then so had no desire to be one. I have since visited the USA and know how friendly and welcoming Americans are.

I died when the b12 I was in (I was the gunnner; not the pilot) was shot down.

(This sensation of spinning downwards to my death was brought back to me in my present life when a pilot friend took me up in a Victor (two seater aeroplane)  cut the motors and spun the plane downwards without warning me. -He was trying to show off.)

 I was 19; male and the middle child of three boys. My name was Harold. I saw my home but not my parents. 

As I was born this life in February 1949 I would have come straight back after I died. But knowing that I do not understand the nature of reality and accepting that linear time is an illusion anything is possible.

A friend of mine took me to a past life.

I was walking toward a well in a cobblestone courtyard.

As soon as I appeared everyone else scattered.

Immediately I came back to waking reality and couldn’t stop laughing.

I said “I don’t know who I was but they didn’t like me.” (I may have been a leper?)

FOLLOWING IS A PAST LIFE REGRESSION/MEDITATION

If you don’t “see” just trust the concepts that come into your head

I have used this “meditation” with my Wiccan groups

and my psychic development groups

I believe the regression is possible because linear time is an illusion

I asked “clairvoyantly” about “the meaning of life” which strangely enough isn’t 42 (Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy)

The answer I got was more a concept than words but translated:

I was asked if I could conceptualize NO LINEAR TIME and when I said “No” I was told that “they” couldn’t explain.

Namaste

I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from chopra.com One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”

 In the following book I hope to help those who wish to develop their clairvoyant abilities.

In “The Clairvoyant Experiences Of A Sceptic” I told a few of my clairvoyant experiences.

Listening to others similar stories made me realize that

it is so much better if you can have these experiences first hand.

Kung fu tz  (Confucius) say “Perseverance prospers”

So don’t give up – you will succeed

And use the recorded meditations in my blog

The clairvoyant Experiences of a Sceptic is not a literary masterpiece

but a true story. I majored in sociology not literature

I dont know the meaning of life:

nor understand the nature of reality:

I do know physical death is not the end.

And there are so many amazing stories omitted so as not to break client confidentiality.

The second part I wrote as therapy and had not intended to include.

It wasn’t included in the original l publication

( I started shaking when I tried to write about the abuse so it is badly written and a great deal omitted)

 A SHORT STORY ABOUT HEALING THE  BLUE PLANET

I wrote and published this sci fi short story a few years ago (under the above title) when the human population was only 7.4 billion:

(1st published 4th April 2017)

It is now  8 billion.

Our cultural norms and the Protestant Ethic are causing the extinction of all life.

I wrote this as social satire and sympathetic magic

I realize my writing style doesn’t fit what people expect

My excuse –I majored in sociology not literature 😛

I wanted to put my idea that humans are not indigenous to the planet

A few lines  from this short story:

“Most humans think that those who live in harmony with the environment are primitive and inferior. Actually they don’t think.

They just mindlessly conform to what those in power and their entertainment media tell them.

 They are really stupid but consider themselves superior to all other life forms because they talk:

They think if something or someone doesn’t talk they don’t understand.

They thoughtlessly destroy everything. They call some creatures vermin, when humans are the vermin. They kill insects and destroy all the trees despite the fact that insects and trees are essential.

And everything literally goes down the drain polluting the oceans instead of nourishing other life.”

“Let them eat cake”

Seeing James Cromwell on “Sunrise” —morning television

motivated  me to re post this

He was saying how visiting an abattoirs in the mid 1970s  caused him to become vegan

Wiser and well known people have  advocated for other life forms and the ecology long before me.

Peter Singer

Albert Schweitzer

John Newton  (wrote Amazing Grace)

Irving Stowe and Dorothy Stowe, (founders of GreenPeace)

Casey Affleck

Alec Baldwin

James Cromwell

David Attenborough

And many many more

And there were movies

“The Day the Earth Stood Still” (re make)

And “Avatar’

“Let them eat cake”

a famous quote attributed to Marie-Antoinette, the queen of France during the French Revolution. As the story goes, it was the queen’s response upon being told that her starving peasant subjects had no bread.

Most people have this attitude and response to starving wild life.

e.g.                                                                                                                  

I am often told

“don’t feed the birds they have to find their own food”

People don’t realize that humans in western culture have destroyed the homes and food sources of all other life forms.

Our norms and attitudes are causing the extinction of all life.

In our culture we don’t share with one another; never mind other life forms.

Karl Marx who advocated sharing – communism – is seen as evil.

And please know China and other so called communist countries have “state capitalism” not communism.

(I wrote a paper on Karl Marx when I majored in sociology)

Some one told me not to go on about the ecology because there is nothing that they can do:

but they and you can:

Do what you can in the microcosm

Feed the birds even if your neighbours abuse you because they don’t want the noise and the poop.

Don’t chop down trees

Trees don’t light fires

humans do

Makes more sense to get rid of arsonists rather than trees

Google eco friendly homes and gardens for ideas:

Don’t use poisons:

Try your best to adhere to ahimsa

Don’t kill insects and mice etc

taken by me on Kangaroo Island in 1980s

Enjoy your day

A SHORT STORY ABOUT HEALING THE  BLUE PLANET

I wrote and published this sci fi short story a few years ago (under the above title) when the human population was only 7.4 billion:

(1st published 4th April 2017)

It is now  8 billion.

Our cultural norms and the Protestant Ethic are causing the extinction of all life.

I wrote this as social satire and sympathetic magic

I realize my writing style doesn’t fit what people expect

My excuse –I majored in sociology not literature 😛

I wanted to put my idea that humans are not indigenous to the planet

A few lines  from this short story:

“Most humans think that those who live in harmony with the environment are primitive and inferior. Actually they don’t think.

They just mindlessly conform to what those in power and their entertainment media tell them.

 They are really stupid but consider themselves superior to all other life forms because they talk:

They think if something or someone doesn’t talk they don’t understand.

They thoughtlessly destroy everything. They call some creatures vermin, when humans are the vermin. They kill insects and destroy all the trees despite the fact that insects and trees are essential.

And everything literally goes down the drain polluting the oceans instead of nourishing other life.”

 In the following book I hope to help those who wish to develop their clairvoyant abilities.

In “The Clairvoyant Experiences Of A Sceptic” I told a few of my clairvoyant experiences.

Listening to others similar stories made me realize that

it is so much better if you can have these experiences first hand.

Kung fu tz  (Confucius) say “Perseverance prospers”

So don’t give up – you will succeed

And use the recorded meditations in my blog

The clairvoyant Experiences of a Sceptic is not a literary masterpiece

but a true story. I majored in sociology not literature

I dont know the meaning of life:

nor understand the nature of reality:

I do know physical death is not the end.

And there are so many amazing stories omitted so as not to break client confidentiality.

The second part I wrote as therapy and had not intended to include.

It wasn’t included in the original l publication

( I started shaking when I tried to write about the abuse so it is badly written and a great deal omitted)

Four AUDIO MEDITATIONS

CREATIVE CONSCIOUSNESS MEDITATION

I recorded Creative Consciousness meditation earlier this century at the request of a psychic development group that I was running at the time.

TREE MEDITATION paraphrased from Mother Wit by Diane Mariechild —- it is a great book if you can find it.

Am sure you are better at finding things on Google etc than me 😛 — I couldn’t find it.

ASTRAL PROJECTION

Also from Mother Wit

Past life regression

I wrote this meditation — it has been successful when used in psychic development classes.

Clairvoyance is developed through practice:

my daughter suggested this book

I hope that it helps people

In the following book I hope to help those who wish to develop their clairvoyant abilities.

In “The Clairvoyant Experiences Of A Sceptic” I told a few of my clairvoyant experiences.

Listening to others similar stories made me realize that

it is so much better if you can have these experiences first hand.

Kung fu tz  (Confucius) say “Perseverance prospers”

So don’t give up – you will succeed

And use the recorded meditations in my blog

The clairvoyant Experiences of a Sceptic is not a literary masterpiece

but a true story. I majored in sociology not literature

I dont know the meaning of life:

nor understand the nature of reality:

I do know physical death is not the end.

And there are so many amazing stories omitted so as not to break client confidentiality.

The second part I wrote as therapy and had not intended to include.

It wasn’t included in the original l publication

( I started shaking when I tried to write about the abuse so it is badly written and a great deal omitted)

 A SHORT STORY ABOUT HEALING THE  BLUE PLANET

I wrote and published this sci fi short story a few years ago (under the above title) when the human population was only 7.4 billion:

(1st published 4th April 2017)

It is now  8 billion.

Our cultural norms and the Protestant Ethic are causing the extinction of all life.

I wrote this as social satire and sympathetic magic

I realize my writing style doesn’t fit what people expect

My excuse –I majored in sociology not literature 😛

I wanted to put my idea that humans are not indigenous to the planet

A few lines  from this short story:

“Most humans think that those who live in harmony with the environment are primitive and inferior. Actually they don’t think.

They just mindlessly conform to what those in power and their entertainment media tell them.

 They are really stupid but consider themselves superior to all other life forms because they talk:

They think if something or someone doesn’t talk they don’t understand. They thoughtlessly destroy everything. They call some creatures vermin,

when humans are the vermin. They kill insects and destroy all the trees despite the fact that insects and trees are essential.

And everything literally goes down the drain polluting the oceans instead of nourishing other life.”

Namaste

I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from chopra.com One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”

MOST PEOPLE STILL DONT WANT TO KNOW

I don’t believe in what western culture calls karma

(It is not an accurate interpretation of the word — I studied world religions as an elective at uni)

In my life experience what goes around doesn’t come around

My mother had most people convinced she was a lovely person

Yet she was an abusive lying narcissist

She had a good life for 93 years

So many of our culture’s accepted architypes and norms are not true

One is that mothers love their children

There are many of us who were not loved by our mothers–many more than I originally thought.

Some whose mothers didn’t love them are fortunate to have a spouse that does –others go through life never being loved

I could claim to be writing this in support of those who have suffered parental abuse:

IT IS  partly my motivation

But my main reason is I tire of people telling me how lovely my mother was

It wasn’t until this century that I admitted to myself that she was horrible

I always loved her and thought she was beautiful

And I have just been reminded of a Christmas where she kicked and bashed me for no apparent reason

(I was 42 years old)

Having suffered abuse from being a baby (flash backs to wheni was in a cot)

I attracted abusive partners

A doctor whose mother was abusive told me that people sense those who will tolerate abuse and we attract abusers

I thought my mother most beautiful and intelligent,

So it must be because “I am useless a failure a disappointment neither use nor ornament –cannot do anything right” that she didn’t love me

  (This she told me regularly and reinforced by making me do everything at least 10 times –and still not right – when I was young –and constantly criticising me when I was an adult)

Even in this day and age if i commented about my mother’s abuse –the reply was “you must have deserved it”

If I told people that my husband was abusive I was either called a liar or told “I don’t want to know”

It is hard to love oneself when one has never been loved

(I have the best children and grandchildren so I am loved but it doesnt help me love myself)

I am in my 70s I still have no self confidence and constantly criticize myself

This year I had been trying to love and forgive my mother– never lasts – not long before I am reminded of her lies.

Psychologists tell us to try and understand what a parent’s life was like.

They also say “Go to a time and place when you felt safe” – there isn’t one

I have flash backs to when I was still in my cot

Imagine what it is like for a child whose mother would just change into a screaming bashing psycho without warning

When my first child was born – her advice was – “if she cries put her in her cot:

  shut the door

 and let her cry herself to sleep “

I didn’t follow this advice

Must have happened to me but I don’t remember

I was never hugged

I have blocked out a lot of my abuse but somethings will occasionally trigger a flashback.

When  I was already going to school my mother pushed me into the wood burning part of the wood stove when it was lit and shut the door: She then pulled me out: wrapped me in a blanket and told people that she had saved my life after I crawled in. I had first degree burns.

When I was ten my mother was bashing me with a scrubbing brush and had also washed my mouth out with soap.

 I said to her “I haven’t done anything wrong”

 and she told my that she just felt like bashing me.

 Despite this, for over half a century I believed that I deserved abuse because this is what everyone told me.

“YOU MUST HAVE DESERVED IT”

Last century when i still thought my mother was lovely (and the reason I was abused was because I deserved it) I occasionally let her mind my children and my first husbands nephews who lived with us

Brett was 23 when he told me how abusive my mother was to him

He was four when I asked her to mind the children while I was at work

I didn’t hear about how horrible she was to his brother Shane until after her funeral

On one occasion she had tied Shane to a kitchen chair with an electric cord and taken the other children to the zoo

So he couldn’t go to the toilet or even get a drink of water

This century my mother’s physical abuse was limited to slapping me across the face when she felt like it

But her mental abuse was “full on”

When my Dad was dying I took her to the hospital every day and we stayed for most of the day.                         

 I had been helping the morning shift and when the roster changed Mother went crying to the RN who came back and glared at me.

When we collected Dad’s things after he died this RN told me off for abusing my mother!

My Dad was a lovely person but was never allowed to pay me any attention or my mother would have a screaming fit.

 On his death bed he asked me to look after her.

 I did so, not just because I had promised Dad that I would but because I was hoping that my mother would love me and be nice to me.

NEVER HAPPENED

She would say nice things about me to people that knew me and tell these lies to people that didn’t

Sometimes the stories would come back to me:
othertimes I would wonder why people were being nasty to me for no reason

She would tell lies about how horrible Dad was or how horrible I was to her and most people believed her

I was almost 64 when she died so I am not going to rave on about a life time of her abuse

It would fill a large book

  Toward the end she wasn’t allowed to be alone so until I got her a placement in the nursing home she stayed with me – I slept on the couch an gave her my bed

It was difficult to get a placement for her because nursing homes liked people to have an house to sell as a deposit

Mum had an housing trust unit – which she insisted I keep paying the rent on because she thought she would go back.

When I eventually found her a placement in a local nursing home her clothes had to have name tags pressed on. She apologised to the staff for my being too lazy to sew them on. Although this time her attempt at insulting me didn’t work the staff just presumed it was her age!

from facebook

MOST PEOPLE STILL DONT WANT TO KNOW

So many of our culture’s accepted architypes and norms are not true

One is that mothers love their children

There are many of us who were not loved by our mothers–many more than I originally thought.

Some whose mothers didn’t love them are fortunate to have a spouse that does –others go through life never being loved

I could claim to be writing this in support of those who have suffered parental abuse:

IT IS  partly my motivation

But my main reason is I tire of people telling me how lovely my mother was

It wasn’t until this century that I admitted to myself that she was horrible

I always loved her and thought she was beautiful

And I have just been reminded of a Christmas where she kicked and bashed me for no apparent reason

(I was 42 years old)

Having suffered abuse from being a baby (flash backs to wheni was in a cot)

I attracted abusive partners

A doctor whose mother was abusive told me that people sense those who will tolerate abuse and we attract abusers

I thought my mother most beautiful and intelligent,

So it must be because “I am useless a failure a disappointment neither use nor ornament –cannot do anything right” that she didn’t love me

  (This she told me regularly and reinforced by making me do everything at least 10 times –and still not right – when I was young –and constantly criticising me when I was an adult)

Even in this day and age if i commented about my mother’s abuse –the reply was “you must have deserved it”

If I told people that my husband was abusive I was either called a liar or told “I don’t want to know”

It is hard to love oneself when one has never been loved

(I have the best children and grandchildren so I am loved but it doesnt help me love myself)

I am in my 70s I still have no self confidence and constantly criticize myself

This year I had been trying to love and forgive her– never lasts – not long before I am reminded of her lies.

Psychologists tell us to try and understand what a parent’s life was like.

They also say “Go to a time and place when you felt safe” – there isn’t one

I have flash backs to when I was still in my cot

Imagine what it is like for a child whose mother would just change into a screaming bashing psycho without warning

When my first child was born – her advice was – “if she cries put her in her cot:

  shut the door

 and let her cry herself to sleep “

I didn’t follow this advice

Must have happened to me but I don’t remember

I was never hugged

I have blocked out a lot of my abuse but somethings will occasionally trigger a flashback.

When  I was already going to school my mother pushed me into the wood burning part of the wood stove when it was lit and shut the door: She then pulled me out: wrapped me in a blanket and told people that she had saved my life after I crawled in. I had first degree burns.

When I was ten my mother was bashing me with a scrubbing brush and had also washed my mouth out with soap.

 I said to her “I haven’t done anything wrong”

 and she told my that she just felt like bashing me.

 Despite this, for over half a century I believed that I deserved abuse because this is what everyone told me.

“YOU MUST HAVE DESERVED IT”

Last century when i still thought my mother was lovely (and the reason I was abused was because I deserved it) I occasionally let her mind my children and my first husbands nephews who lived with us

Brett was 23 when he told me how abusive my mother was to him

He was four when I asked her to mind the children while I was at work

I didn’t hear about how horrible she was to his brother Shane until after her funeral

On one occasion she had tied Shane to a kitchen chair with an electric cord and taken the other children to the zoo

So he couldn’t go to the toilet or even get a drink of water

This century my mother’s physical abuse was limited to slapping me across the face when she felt like it

But her mental abuse was “full on”

When my Dad was dying I took her to the hospital every day and we stayed for most of the day.                         

 I had been helping the morning shift and when the roster changed Mother went crying to the RN who came back and glared at me.

When we collected Dad’s things after he died this RN told me off for abusing my mother!

My Dad was a lovely person but was never allowed to pay me any attention or my mother would have a screaming fit.

 On his death bed he asked me to look after her.

 I did so, not just because I had promised Dad that I would but because I was hoping that my mother would love me and be nice to me.

NEVER HAPPENED

She would say nice things about me to people that knew me and tell these lies to people that didn’t

Sometimes the stories would come back to me:
othertimes I would wonder why people were being nasty to me for no reason

She would tell lies about how horrible Dad was or how horrible I was to her and most people believed her

I was almost 64 when she died so I am not going to rave on about a life time of her abuse

It would fill a large book

  Toward the end she wasn’t allowed to be alone so until I got her a placement in the nursing home she stayed with me – I slept on the couch an gave her my bed

It was difficult to get a placement for her because nursing homes liked people to have an house to sell as a deposit

Mum had an housing trust unit – which she insisted I keep paying the rent on because she thought she would go back.

When I eventually found her a placement in a local nursing home her clothes had to have name tags pressed on. She apologised to the staff for my being too lazy to sew them on. Although this time her attempt at insulting me didn’t work the staff just presumed it was her age!

from facebook

TO “SEE” OR NOT TO “SEE”

my Dad born 1/1/1921 died 27/5/2004

I believe that everyone is clairvoyant – the ability atrophies because our culture tells us it doesnt exist

My mentor said that it was just a naural extension of our five senses

In the 1970s most people considered us the lunatic fringe

In the late nineteen eighties early nineties the so called “New age” became trendy

And was turned into the Protestant ethic of making  a profit

From trekmovie.com —-
(I  like Armin Shimerman as an actor but I’m not much of a fan of Deep Space Nine)

There is still a lunatic fringe

And there are also many con artist who charge a fortune  and are making it up

I have never charged much

Partly because my Dad was a Spiritualist and told me that I must not charge

And  also because I am so anti the Protestant ethic 

One lady told me the year before covid  that anyone who charges less than eighty is no good

I don’t care whether people believe me not

It is not a matter of belief

More one of quantum physics

See  blog” Life after Death”

Act 1 Scene 5 of Shakespeare’s  Hamlet

“There are more things in Heaven and Earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.” 

Almost a year prior to COVID I was “told” about a genetically engineered virus coming but only mentioned it to one person — who commented to me when COVID arrived

My mentor said you don’t tell bad stuff unless you can say how to avoid it

She didn’t label it a nocebo but of course it would be

I have been given info on environmental stuff but will not “tell” for the same reason

Namaste

I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from chopra.com

One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”

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In the following book I hope to help those who wish to develop their clairvoyant abilities.

In “The Clairvoyant Experiences Of A Sceptic” I told a few of my clairvoyant experiences.

Listening to others similar stories made me realize that

it is so much better if you can have these experiences first hand.

Kung fu tz (Confucius) say “Perseverance prospers”

So don’t give up – you will succeed

And use the recorded meditations in my blog

The clairvoyant Experiences of a Sceptic is not a literary masterpiece

but a true story. I majored in sociology not literature

I dont know the meaning of life:

nor understand the nature of reality:

I do know physical death is not the end.

And there are so many amazing stories omitted so as not to break client confidentiality.

The second part I wrote as therapy and had not intended to include.

It wasn’t included in the original l publication

( I started shaking when I tried to write about the abuse so it is badly written and a great deal omitted)

 A SHORT STORY ABOUT HEALING THE  BLUE PLANET

I wrote and published this sci fi short story a few years ago (under the above title) when the human population was only 7.4 billion:

(1st published 4th April 2017)

It is now  8 billion.

Our cultural norms and the Protestant Ethic are causing the extinction of all life.

I wrote this as social satire and sympathetic magic

I realize my writing style doesn’t fit what people expect

My excuse –I majored in sociology not literature 😛

I wanted to put my idea that humans are not indigenous to the planet

A few lines  from this short story:

“Most humans think that those who live in harmony with the environment are primitive and inferior. Actually they don’t think.

They just mindlessly conform to what those in power and their entertainment media tell them.

 They are really stupid but consider themselves superior to all other life forms because they talk:

They think if something or someone doesn’t talk they don’t understand.

They thoughtlessly destroy everything. They call some creatures vermin, when humans are the vermin. They kill insects and destroy all the trees despite the fact that insects and trees are essential.

And everything literally goes down the drain polluting the oceans instead of nourishing other life.”

AHIMSA – In a culture that believes only humans matter

I tried my best to practice ahimsa before I was aware of this word/concept

Impossible in a culture that believes only humans have a soul and only money matters

I Have fed the local birds ever since I moved here

Mindless automatons tell me

“Do not to feed the birds -they are meant  to find their own food”

It doesn’t occur to them that the human plague  (of 8 Billion) has destroyed the homes and food sources of all other life – making so many extinct.

The larger birds (carnivores) kill the smaller birds for food because thanks to homo sapiens there are not enough mice worms  or small reptiles for them to eat

A couple of years back in Australia they started culling the kookaburras to stop them killing the smaller birds

taken by my grandson

I feed the crows too –one neighbour has complained about their noise

The other has told me that she likes the Ibis (that I feed) but not the crow.

Crows like many other life forms are disliked because of cultural programming

The crow I feed, feeds the baby before she? feeds  herself

I wasn’t able to take a photo because the baby flies away when I walk outside – comes back when I go in.

Humans have this effect on me — have said I am anthrophobic for decades – don’t think it is an actual word)

taken at Coorong

And then there are kangaroos which most farmers consider vermin and kill them

taken by me on Kangaroo island last century

In the 1970s I was a member of  the original Greenpeace

We were labelled dangerous radicals

I was ridiculed and abused for being  in Animal Liberation and a vegetarian

This has changed

These days I am abused for caring about insects moths and spiders

And told that insects are vermin and dangerous to my health

Humans are dangerous–

Considering all the positive changes in my life time I am optimistic that

the caring, intelligent people will prevail and stop all life from becoming extinct.

Enjoy your day