Double Standards


I had an allergic reaction to a blood transfusion after surgery recently and my haemoglobin  was 90. So I allowed myself to eat meat. Although I am now back to my vegetarian diet I still occasionally crave meat. I wont give in though because when I did eat meat my nightmares of being an animal in a slaughterhouse came back. In past years I have been a steer in these dreams; but recently I am a piglet straight from a factory farm. Pigs have the intelligence of a three year old child!  I decided to repost this “Double Standards” blog:—-

Sadly I belong to the most dangerous species on the planet!

If I could change reality, I would change this world.

To begin with the human population would be vastly less than it is. All the damage we humans have done to this planet and the ecology would be healed and all the species we have made extinct would be restored.

I realized long ago I must work in the microcosm before I can influence the macrocosm.                           I have done; and still am, doing what I can to change things that I believe to be wrong. I have seen some changes for the better. But nowhere near enough.

In the 1970’s I was in Animal Liberation; Greenpeace; Women’s Liberation. Greenpeace informed us way back then that we had destroyed this planet beyond repair.                                                               In later years I joined “Trees for Life”.  All these organizations were started by people who really care but humans apparently mess everything up and the organizations end up money-making bureaucracies; with mindless automatons just giving lip service to the original principles, thinking it trendy.

I have many trees around my home and people lecture me saying that they drop too many leaves or are a fire hazard. Trees are essential for the soil and the air and provide homes for birds and animals.

I get told not to feed the magpies because I am stopping them from finding their own food. Well they eat mice but humans poison mice: The magpies eat worms but humans concrete their properties and bituminize the roads. So magpies have to kill other birds to eat; hence I feed then to prevent this.                                                                                                                                                              A few nights ago a moth kept throwing itself against my kitchen window even though the curtains were closed. I turned off the light but the moth didn’t survive. It reminded me of when I was in primary school and we were learning about Albert Schweitzer. Our teacher told us that he used to be upset because the moths hurt themselves being attracted to lights. She found this strange.  I feel the same. I must be strange!

When I was very young and found out where meat came from I refused to eat it. For this I received a bashing and my mother told me that I would end up in a mental institution for being strange. (Here’s that word again-“strange”?!). The same meal was put in front of me for breakfast, lunch and tea until I ate it.

Carnivores tell me that the meat industry is nature. DER! There is no adrenalin rush from the hunt: No respect for the animal giving up its life: just queues of animals watching others being slaughtered            I get emotional thinking of the scape goat. What an existence!                                                            Factory farming is horrific.  I just won’t start on that one!

Another thing that annoys me is “pest control”. Humans eradicate things they consider have reached plague proportion or are not indigenous. Humans are way beyond plague proportions and I don’t believe we are even indigenous to this planet. I think we were genetically engineered and put here. Even if this isn’t the case White Anglo Saxon Protestants (WASPs) are certainly not indigenous to Australia or the United States of America!                                                                                                                    Locally they cull the Correllas (parrots) because they are annoying. Humans have removed  almost all the trees these Correllas are able to feed from.

Insects are so important to the environment but humans just kill them because they can!                         I was given this quote but do not know the author. “If all the insects left the planet, the planet would die. If all the humans left the planet, the planet would thrive!”

If we deliberately ran over another person we would be up for murder but people are allowed to run over birds, animals and reptiles because they are on the road.  I just don’t get the arrogance of people thinking they are the only species that matters.

Humans are prosecuted for destroying property but destroying the environment is considered progress. Locally the real estate companies have destroyed heritage bushland by bulldozing  or burning. They then sub divide and build houses so more of the most dangerous creatures on the planet can live here.

Movies like Avatar or The Day the Earth Stood Still were only preaching to the converted.

If anyone one has even read this far maybe you would join me in an affirmation that I do daily.           Just from a psychological and sociological point of view the more people that believe in something, the better chance it has of happening.

 Affirmation: “Humans show love and respect to all life forms, especially their pets, Mother Earth and one another: There is zero human population growth. So Mote it Be”

I actually include “All humans are vegetarians and factory farming and the meat industry  abolished” but don’t expect others to join in on this.

Blessed Be


Spiral alan full moon Photos Solstice

Three of these photos were taken with a non digital camera at a full moon ritual at Encounter Bay at the beginning of this century.

The night the pictures were taken there was complete cloud cover so there was no moon light filtering through.

I was just clicking the camera to use up the film.

When I initially got the photos back I thought there was a camera fault. – Apparently not.

The interesting thing is that we do a spiral dance as part of the full moon ritual and there is a spiral in the photos.

The other photo is of my grandson: Taken a few years ago.

matt with matt

I have entitled this “Angels question mark” because I see angels as white light.

The photo with the sphere seems to be a common occurrence. Other people have shown me similar.

Re the photos taken at the full moon ritual  I sent them to Janet Farrar; wife of the late Stewart Farrar; and her partner replied saying that they had similar.

Off on a tangent here– In the 1980’s I filled out a questionnaire for one of Stewart Farrar’s books entitled “The Life and Times of a Modern Day Witch”  I loaned my copy of this and as often happened with loaned books, it was never returned. Suffice to say I no longer lend books. I found a copy on Ebay only to be informed that the copy was too damaged and had gone to recycling.

Blessed be

Thank God I am an athiest — ( punn intended)

I wrote a blog sometime ago entitled Nephilim but deleted it.  To my dismay I haven’t found a copy of it anywhere.

I theorized in this (deleted) blog that humans have a God concept because they presume that there is an hierarchical structure:

And that all the old gods including “Yod He Vau He (Jehovah) were ET’s.

Say religion; say fascism.

Last century I started writing a novel where the ET’s that created us were returning to cull or exterminate us because of the damage we have done to the planet. The means for our culling were specially programmed nannites. (This was long before the remake of “The day The earth Stood Still”)

Early this century I did a translocation meditation where  I chose to go to the Ophiuchus  system because this is the system the ET’s in my novel came from. It was the 5th planet in a binary sun system. In this meditation the ET’s I saw were not humanoid. (Humanoid is what I was expecting).

Difficult to describe them; they had a long necks; thick skin like a rhinoceros; four legs and were moving around in what looked like water but wasn’t water. I asked how they were so technologically advanced when they had no hands to manipulate with.

I was told they did everything with the power of their mind.

I was expecting them to be humanoid because of the Nephilim who were apparently giants. (See picture of skeleton)

I have no way of knowing whether what I saw  was just my imagination.


It was only at the beginning of this my 65th year that I admitted to myself that I did not believe in God. I spent the greater part of my life looking for my spiritual home. Wicca suited me because we respect the planet and the earth as our Mother. Well we did when I first started. Now that it is so popular, I think most “wanna bees” are only interested in spells and being different.

I have been trying to understand the nature of reality since I was seven years old.       I have had a few theories since then. In the 1990’s I used the analogy of us living in a virtual reality and of course when “The Matrix” came to the screen so many people recommended it. It was/is a creatively brilliant movie with subtle satire.

The fact that there isn’t a God doesn’t mean that we do not survive death. Considering that I see and communicate with those who have passed over: and have had instances of telling the person that I was reading for; something that they did not know. They usually told me I was wrong then later  contacted me to  tell me that I was correct. This proved to me that I wasn’t just reading their mind

After criticizing “wanna bees” I just realized one of the things that attracted me to “The Craft” was learning the skill of creating my own reality: I have since taught neophytes .  Intent is what matters and emotions are the power. Another thing I know is that “thought forms” gain a consciousness and reality of their own.

I will discuss this in another blog.

Suffice to say after six decades I still do not understand the meaning of life or the nature of reality. This reality just feels wrong, but it could be because homo sapiens have destroyed the ecology beyond repair?

It could be 42 –Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy:  or Monty Python may have the answer — I of course am joking!

Self doubt

I wrote a blog yesterday but trashed it. I am just not happy with myself at the moment. I feel like my clairvoyance isn’t working at the moment.

But it is.

Running psychic development groups I empathize with (and am excited for)  people who “see” or “get” genuine clairvoyance for the first time and  know it is real. So I decided to repost a questionnaire my youngest grandson gave me.Ship

My youngest grandson aged 15 years, who lives in North Queensland, asked me to complete a questionaire for an English assignment. The idea was to interview someone who had an interesting life.     I was flattered and then surprised because he asked  questions about clairvoyance. This is a photo of the ship that I arrived at Outer Harbour South Australia on 2nd March.

Because my blog is “clairvoyanceetc ”   I am just including the clairvoyance questions.

When did you first realise that you had psychic abilities and do you recall your first experience and whether it scared you or were you intrigued by it?

In the 1970’s I was intrigued by psychic abilities. I read what few books I could get related to this. One was on quantum physics. A friend at Teacher’s College loaned me a book by Jane Roberts “Seth Speaks” and took me to lectures on spiritualism, Wicca & associated philosophies. These were run by a spiritualist minister and held at the Gawler Town Hall.  This was in 1978.

The borrowed copy of “Seth Speaks” was hard back with no pictures.  I visualized what Seth looked like. When I bought my own copy in paperback there was a portrait of Seth painted by Jane Robert’s husband in the book. He looked exactly as I had visualized him.

In retrospect I had flying dreams as a child and one experience that was definitely psychic when I was seven years old. It sounds like something I was just thinking when I explain it but it wasn’t. I was walking up Frome Road with my Mother & thought to myself I will be walking up here one day with my daughter. It felt like I was outside this reality. I never forgot it. Sounds like nothing when I tell it but it was a rather profound for a seven ear old.

I also always knew if someone was lying but thought that this was a normal thing.

Seeing so called ghosts never scared me.

My first experience was seeing someone’s aura at the Gawler institute. I also attended a psychic group run by the lady who ran the meetings at the Gawler Institute. She supposedly went into trance. It was so Fake!
I was very sceptical in those days and viewing a phony trance didn’t help give me confidence in this philosophy. But instead of just giving up I was able to get into a Spiritualist psychic development group run by a lady by the name of Stella Darwood.

Stella actually paid a lot of attention to me. Trying to help me to develop my clairvoyance.  The other older ladies in the group were not impressed. Just as now a days when this now so called “New Age” philosophy is the flavour of the century. Most people were coming from ego and  “one up man ship”.

At one session Stella said to me “What are you seeing?” And I said “Nothing”. Stella told me exactly what I was seeing!

It was a man wearing 19th century clothing and a flat cap with a peek; pulling a wooden wheel barrow. This amazed me because still being extremely sceptical I thought that what I was seeing, I was imagining.

Plus the image just flashed onto my mind & was gone.

This quick flash tied in with a theory put forth in a book that I had read before pursuing the Spiritualist path. That many realities exist in the same space but because the electrons are revolving at different speeds (per each reality) around the protons & neutrons the other realities are out of phase.

I have thought since the late eighties that we are in a “virtual reality”. Well, I consider this the best analogy for something I know I cannot understand.

If we don’t have a concept for something it doesn’t exist for us. I therefore just have to accept that there are many things beyond my understanding.

The first time Stella went into trance I saw her face change to a Mongolian looking man. I said nothing but the man next to me described exactly what I saw after the trance was over.

Stella had a Siamese cat who sat with the psychic development group. I noticed in future sessions that if someone was in genuine trance the cat would sit upright & pay attention. If it was fake the cat would not be interested.

There was one lady in Stella’s classes that went into genuine “trance”. Her face changed to an American Indian Sharman. I could see “him” holding what looked like a rattle. And ofcourse the cat paid attention.

Despite my experiences thus far and even though I saw guides with everyone in the room I was still skeptical and thought that I had an over active imagination.

In another group run by a lady named Blanche, I ‘saw’ a man (deceased) wearing wire rim circular glasses standing between Blanche and a lady named Cath.

This man showed me what I thought was a china ornament of “Cinderella”. My view of this ornament was changed so that I could see “wheels” underneath and a key in “her” back. Blanche was crying she said that it was the last thing her father had bought for her that he used to call her (Blanche) the dancing lady. Blanche told me that it wasn’t a china ornament. That it was plastic.

 The incident that convinced me that clairvoyance was a reality happened at work. I was a student nurse at Strathmont Centre. I was washing dishes with a male staff nurse. We didn’t have kitchen hands in those days. It was 1979. Kym was 6 ft tall and rather heavy set. He had long blonde hair and dressed “Flower Power” style. A man (deceased) flashed in (when I see or hear things they flash in a fraction of a second) He had Kym’s high forehead and similar features but wore a suit with a crepe ribbon and a cross and had a short back and sides hair cut and dark hair.

I asked Kym if his father was a minister. He asked me why and initially I would not answer. I eventually told him what I saw and Kym told me that it was his uncle. He asked me what denomination his uncle was.

I did not know.

After Kym left the kitchen I asked his uncle what he had died of.  The words were that fast all I could make out was sclerosis. Because we were with the intellectually disabled I thought “tubular sclerosis?” Then I realized it was multiple sclerosis.

 When we were having a tea break Kym told me that his uncle died of multiple sclerosis. I was amazed and said that his uncle had “told” me this!

Kym said “Get more”! I informed him that I couldn’t.

But I saw panama hats and monkeys. I said “He was a missionary in South America” Kym said “Yes”. I then saw masks and a jungle and said he was also a missionary in New Guinea. Kym told me this wasn’t so.  When Kym came to work the next day he said that his mother had confirmed that her brother was a missionary in New Guinea. This showed that I wasn’t just reading Kim’s mind.

Who else in your family has physic abilities, both immediate and extended?

Firstly I believe everyone has this ability but it atrophies because our culture denies its existence:

My maternal Grandmother was Welsh and my Mother said that her Mother was clairvoyant but also superstitious.  Mum was clairvoyant but was afraid of this ability until she was in her fifties as she only seemed to know bad things.

My Father was a Spiritualist and clairvoyant but did not tell me this until the late 70’s when I became interested. It wasn’t something a man of his era would want to admit to, due cultural taboos. Dad was interested and knowledgeable about quantum mechanics (now called quantum physics)

Both my children have clairvoyant abilities.

How have you enhanced your abilities over the years and have you provided psychic development to others

I have run psychic development groups since 1990.  Clairvoyance improves with practice just like anything else. I enjoy that people are amazed that they can really “see” things. Every person in all my groups has at least been able to “see” auras.

 What has been your most memorable experience when giving a reading to someone?

There are of course many; I respect peoples confidentiality when doing a reading. Also I tend not to remember peoples readings: Other clairvoyants say the same. Probably to protect the client and also not to take on other people’s problems.

I will describe three; one very upsetting; one that I was told was wrong to begin with; and a funny one.

I while I was reading for a man (in Chantilly Place, Goolwa. SA) I picked up a friend of his who died in the Crimean War. The man I was reading for asked if the man had been killed or was he taken and tortured. As they had had to leave him behind. The man had been tortured. I did not feel the physical pain but the emotional horror.

I read for a lady whose son had died. Off on a tangent – (When this lady first came to me I told her she would have to come back in four months. Her son had only died two months ago the first time she came for a reading. Spiritualists had taught me that people had to be dead six months before they could make contact. This isn’t true.  A year later I was reading for someone whose husband came through amazingly clearly. I asked how long he had been “passed over” and was told nine weeks.) Back to the story: One of the things this lady’s son did was point to the head of his grave. She told me that there was nothing there! I pointed out to her that I wasn’t to know that her son had been buried. The following day I received a phone call from this lady. She told me that she had gone straight to the grave after her reading. His girlfriend had put a headstone on the grave saying “His loving Wife” and not mentioned any of the family!

I was reading for a young lady. Her father was one of the people that came through. He kept showing himself sitting on a long drop toilet: pants around his ankles; reading the paper and smoking. I didn’t feel comfortable “giving this off”

But he insisted it was a family joke. When I told the girl she explained that her grandfather had put kero down the long drop. Her dad got off the toilet throwing the cigarette butt in and blew up the building!

What do you feel when you are communicating with spirits and does it heighten your senses, if so can you explain in simple words?

Difficult to verbalize; It varies depending on who I am reading for. It is generally uplifting. One lady that I read for said that I “faded in and out”.

 Do you find that upon meeting someone for the first time your physic abilities raise your senses that tune you into any bad vibes this person gives off, for instance have you ever met someone that you have instantly felt bad vibes from and that they made you feel frighten or scared or that they were just not a nice person


What has been the best thing that being a physic has brought to your life?

I know that we somehow survive death. This applies to all life forms! Although I acknowledge I do not understand the nature of reality. I am also sometimes able to communicate with my parents.

Claivoyant readings on Skype   — ceridwen2

This was my first post but when posted it came up with about one line of writing

This above all; to thine own self be true,

And it must follow, as night follows day,

Thou canst not then be false to any man,

Hamlet Act 1, scene 3, 78–82

Being true to ones self is much more than just being honest.

This Shakespeare quote is how I try to live my life.

Our culture operates on the assumption that people are honest and truthful yet this often isn’t so.

On a “white lie” level; how often do people say what they think the other person wants to hear or lie to get attention & make themselves feel important.

Lying; cheating; stealing and scams are rampant.

On the other hand one could argue that telling the truth is not always kind?

I feel so strongly about telling the truth as I believe it to be that even if I accidentally lie I feel guilty.

What I write I believe either to be true or possible. I am not “into” “absolute ideologies” so I acknowledge this is only my opinion.

The following is a quote from Marion Weinstein’s “Positive Magick”( Bibliography: page 234; Positive Magic: Earth Magic productions New York; First published in 1978 by Simon & Schuster Pocket Books New York)

Ma’Kheru, or The Word of Truth

The concept of Ma’ Kheru, or Maat, was a highly regarded state ofbeing in ancient Egypt. In fact it was always hoped that by the time a person died, he/ she would ha ve reached this state of personal evolution.

In my lifetime society’s attitude to clairvoyance and associated philosophy’s has improved along with attitudes to minority groups such as women; different races; sexual preference; etc. Although there are still many “out there” who consider clairvoyance to be a con at best and evil at worst.

People are free to believe as they choose and I have no desire to alter people’s beliefs or opinions.

I do not require other’s to believe as I do to make it true.

The clairvoyants that I know (including myself) are genuine and honest and coming from integrity. I am very aware that there are charlatans who are more interested in making money than helping people. How prevalent this is difficult to ascertain

I was made aware of a scam last century where people who went for a reading were told that a “hex” had been put on them and were charged $2,000 to remove same. Similar scams still happen

.The way to avoid being conned is to trust ones “gut”!

To quote or maybe paraphrase Dr. Deepak Chopra:” We should always trust our “gut”. Every cell in our bodies has neuropeptides which means every cell thinks. It is better to trust your “gut” because it hasn’t learned to doubt what it thinks.”

I am able to see & communicate with people that have died as well as other discarnate beings. I know that my clairvoyant ability is genuine because I was extremely sceptical in the nineten seventies when I first participated in Spiritualist psychic development groups. I made sure that I was being honest with myself so that I knew I was really “seeing”

 I have had numerous experiences to confirm that I am truly communicating with beings who are no longer in this reality.

When I “see” (clairvoyance); “hear” (clairaudience) or” feel”  (clairsensience) It flashes in a fraction of a second. To be pedantic a sixteenth of a second.  The spiritualist would train us to remember what we saw by putting items on a tray. Covering same with a tea towel; removing the towel for a fraction of a second and then cover the items again. We had to see how many items we could remember and describe.

Knowing that I have helped someone by proving that their loved one is genuinely communicating is my greatest reward. I am not interested in the payment, although I don’t refuse the money. I have done readings for an exchange or for free in some circumstances.

 Every one is clairvoyant and everyone creates  their own reality. Because our culture teaches that clairvoyance doesn’t exist these abilities atrophy

 My first paid reading for the general public was in 1980 when I worked in a coffee lounge called “The Sixth Sense” which was on O’Connell Street North Adelaide.

.Despite my clairvoyant awareness and experiences I do not claim to understand the nature of reality. And I have questioned the nature of reality since I was seven years old. (long; long; ago!)

I have my theories but am also aware that these theories are limited by the cultural and personal concepts that I have. Even analogies cannot really help me understand this multi universe and what is beyond it.

I realize that I am going off on a tangent  here but this is something that I often do  so I am still being true to me.

Long before the movie The Matrix came out I used to say to the people in my psychic development groups – “Imagine you are in a virtual reality!”

The movie “The Matrix” is creatively brilliant. The surreal colour. The names of the characters; the way the dialogue is presented; the social satire. But it also questions “what is real?”

In my early twenties I was fascinated by the similarity between atoms & solar systems

I can remember associating the concept of an atom with that of a solar system. The protons & neutrons being the sun and the electrons the planets.

Another theory that interests me relates to the human race who I always thought didn’t belong on planet Earth. Humans do not fit in with the ecological balance. They have already destroyed the planet beyond repair according to “Greenpeace”  I rarely mention this theory as it  offends  some people’s religious beliefs but I sometimes wonder if we were genetically engineered by extra terrestrials as slave labour and a food source. These ET’s being the “gods”.

It explains the lack of a missing link and the idea of human sacrifices?

I have been told that there are references to this concept in Mayan manuscripts.

I have been unable to find such information.

The Hitchhikers Guide to The Galaxy gives the meaning of life as 42. The obvious satire being we are not asking the right question.

And Monty Python’s Meaning of Life – Is it an after dinner mint?
Reading my own blog I question myself as to “What’s the point I am making?” And there seems to be no conclusion!

I guess in looking back on my life being true to myself and “what makes my heart sing” Is to use my clairvoyance to help someone communicate with a loved one who has died and see how much difference it makes when I can give them genuine information from the” deceased “ person. But I believe my dharma is to help the planet as best I can.