I was thinking of a man I that nursed when our local nursing home first opened.

He was a Knight of the Southern Cross and instramental in having the local nursing home built.

I tried unsuccessfully to find out the population of Goolwa back then.

Suffice to say it was still small enough to have a country town mentality.

I respect people’s religious beliefs as long as they respect that I don’t believe.

Someone told him that I was a clairvoyant or more accurately that “I see dead people”

He asked if I saw anyone around him and I described two people whom he identified — one was his  late wife.

I told him that I spoke  to my Dad (deceased) and he obviously told this story to visitors one day:

I walked into his room to attend to something and was ridiculed by some woman about talking to my Dad.

Being ridiculed doesn’t bother me (been on the receiving end of this since the seventies) but she was implying that a dying man was deluding himself that there was “life after death”.

Which annoyed me.

Off on a tangent now

This started me thinking about how I was later put on continuous Tramadol which made me feel like the walking dead:

 I was nasty and paranoid and it blocked my clairvoyance

I was ignored by doctors for several years until I thought it had to be the medication and stopped it myself.

(finally a doctor told me it was the Tramadol and listed me as allergic.)

I have since  heard several horror stories of people hallucinating:

One this year from my son  who was put on Tramadol after hip replacement surgery:

 He said he was abusing his wife and hallucinating.

The medical system are aware that Tramadol has serious side effects but still prescribe it.

That is why I liked watching New Amsterdam, it covered real issues and high lighted the power of drug companies/a k a multinational gods.

I googled =

Have a great day


I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”


  1. People who don’t understand get really pissed off when the little they do understand seems to appear to go against their beliefs, which they haven’t bothered to examine.

    Tramadol is a major drug with major issues, but when it works, it’s the only one that does. But you have to really require that level of mental restraints for it to be truly beneficial or you are effectively straight jacketing the entirety of your mind not just the hallucinations. There are many treatments out there like this. Radiation and chemo destroy the body, but for those it saves it’s deemed “worth it”. Psychotropic Meds are the same. It’s not a one size fits all, it should never be. The important bit is to have a doctor who has the ability to HEAR YOU when you say “I am not even human anymore” and then work with you to find the right balance. I personally know two people that Tramadol gave a chance of normality for. In my work that I have done I have dealt with many people with hallucinations. It was my job to ensure that they were advocating properly for themselves and assist when they were unable to. Plenty came out of the hospital dosed up on Tramadol and didn’t know day from night but they weren’t hallucinating so they were free to roam around (we didn’t let them, we’d take them in for a short time to teach them how to cook, take their meds and why and how, how to refill their meds, set them up with outpatient services and case management services so they didn’t end up on the streets back where they started. Mostly, I helped people get switched off of Tramadol onto something more suited to their needs. 2 people were so severe that Tramadol just allowed them to realize what they were seeing/hearing was not real. The drug is not inherently bad in itself, it’s a treatment people need. It’s the doctors that implement it without care for the patients actual needs that are the problem. Back to my original example, if a doctor gave radiation and chemo treatments to a person who didn’t have cancer, it wouldn’t be the fault of the treatment, even if the patient was unfortunately killed. It’s the doctor for using it wrong. Why should the same accountability standards be held in psychological settings as well?

    • thankyou –appreciate your insight –sorry i was late seeing this — been in hospital and then no power here for a day

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