YOU MUST HAVE DESERVED IT

pic from Arnoult/WireImage

I recently listened to Will Wheaton talk about his parents

Will is my son’s age – the reason I mention this is that attitudes were different in my day

I was told

Don’t criticize your mother

You must have deserved it

 Get over it

Called a liar Or completely ignored

Ada/mother

My mother was a physically, mentally and emotionally abusive, lying narcissist

She had most people convinced she was a sweet lovely person

I spent more than 40years thinking I was a bad person

 I remember her spouting the following when I was still a toddler and it continued until I was 50 years old

“You are useless a failure a disappointment:  cannot do anything right: neither use nor ornament ”

Which was reinforced by making me do things numerous times and telling me it was still not good enough

Her physical abuse this century was limited to slapping me across the face

But her emotional abuse was full on

She tried ridiculing and insulting me the week she died but the nurses took no notice

All I wanted was for her to love me and say she was proud  of me

NEVER HAPPENED

Two of my friends said

“She was jealous of you”

To which I replied

“I wanted my mother to love me not be jealous”

I am now 74 and the programming still rears its head — I delete it

(from a neuro physiological point of view it is probably hard wired)

I still love her

I am aware that so many people can identify with Will’s story

I never felt comfortable complaining about my mother and am still preached at or criticized when I do

But  strangely enough it is healing when I tell the truth about my mother

Blessed be

FREE CLAIRVOYANT READINGS –and a thankyou

Just send me healing energy as payment

I limited myself to one reading a day since I first posted this

Thank you to those who have let me have a practice—it has given me new confidence

– today the clairvoyance was flowing

my first great grandchild

I moved to a retirement village at the end of April 2023

When my youngest grandson came to visit with his partner and my first great grandchild he said “bet that you “see” heaps here” –

 I said

“I don’t see much at all”

I have seen one lady’s aura

And have done an email “reading” for a friend whose Dad died— was able to communicate with him

I have been doing readings since late nineteen seventies

I was trained by Spiritualists

I am able to communicate with those no longer in linear time

For divination

I use runes that my husband made in the days when there were no new age shops

I am offering free email readings to make myself use my clairvoyance

Send me healing or energy  as payment

Just give me your given name and no other information

In a culture where sociopaths succeed, psychopath are glorified, mindless automatons fit in and scams are rampant – I get why people are suspicious of something offered as free

Chronic pain mostly caused by surgical and medical mistakes has stopped my doing readings on a regular basis—I  am allergic to pain relief—

I love it when my clairvoyance flows clearly –although very fast 😛

Am hoping practice will bring this back

My motivation is to help people

Money  has never been my motivation even in the days when I was forced to get food parcels

I know that people are suspicious of anything free

TRUST YOUR GUT

Deepak Chopra

Said

 “Every cell in the body has neuropeptides –so every cell thinks

Better to trust your gut because it hasn’t learned to doubt what it thinks”

Send a recent photo of yourself  to

Katallen1949@gmail.com

LIFE AFTER DEATH

WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW

I have several friends who don’t believe in clairvoyance or surviving death

On the rare occasions I mention a clairvoyant experience that amazed me they just look at me with disdain or make some comment implying that I am either making it up or delusional

Although I dislike being “called” a liar (honesty is important to me)

these are true friends                    

 I don’t need them to believe me – I know it to be true

 so I tolerate their attitude.

People tend to believe that a belief in God and heaven is necessary for a belief in an “afterlife”

Surviving death isn’t synonymous with a religious belief.

We do not understand the nature of reality.

(or at least I don’t)

It appears we exist in an alternate reality when we are “not here”! In this reality the electrons are apparently moving at a different speed around the protons and neutrons so it is out of phase. ( This is my very limited understanding of quantum physics)

Another misconception is that people have to be “earth bound” to communicate with the living:

NOT SO!

I asked “clairvoyantly” about “the meaning of life” which strangely enough isn’t 42 (Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy)

The answer I got was more a concept than words but translated:

I was asked if I could conceptualize NO LINEAR TIME and when I said “No” I was told that “they” couldn’t explain.

We may all be in a huge holodeck:

As suggested by Star Trek Next Generation —

And  “What The Bleep”

“Ship In A Bottle” season six — Star Trek Next Geneeration

In the “special features” of What the “Bleep” they mention that Professor WilliamTiller gives the mathematical constructs of a hologram that we “are” living in.

(William A. Tiller is a professor emeritus of materials science and engineering at Stanford University)

Until the following I suspected clairvoyance was wishful thinking and vivid imagination

The incident that convinced me that clairvoyance was a reality happened at work. I was a student nurse at Strathmont Centre.  I was washing dishes with a male staff nurse. We didn’t have kitchen hands in those days.  Kym was six feet tall and rather heavy set and had long blonde hair. A man (deceased) flashed in (when I see or hear things they flash in a fraction of a second) He had Kym’s high forehead and similar features but wore a suit with a crepe ribbon and a cross and had a short back and sides haircut and dark hair.

I asked Kym if his father was a minister. He asked me why and initially I would not answer. I eventually told him what I saw and Kym told me that it was his uncle. He asked me what denomination his uncle was.

I did not know.

After Kym left the kitchen I asked his uncle, whom I could no longer “see”, what he had died of.  The words were that fast all I could make out was sclerosis. Because we were with the intellectually disabled I thought “tubular sclerosis?” Then I realized it was multiple sclerosis.

 When we were having a tea break Kym told me that his uncle died of multiple sclerosis. I was amazed and said that his uncle had “told” me this!

Kym said “Get more”! I informed him that I couldn’t.

But I saw panama hats and monkeys. I said “He was a missionary in South America” Kym said “Yes”. I then saw masks and a jungle and said he was also a missionary in New Guinea. Kym told me this wasn’t so.  When Kym came to work the next day, he said that his mother had confirmed that her brother was a missionary in New Guinea. This showed that I wasn’t just reading Kim’s mind.

NAMASTE

I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from chopra.com One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”

The clairvoyant Experiences of a Sceptic is not a literary masterpiece

but a true story. I majored in sociology not literature

I dont know the meaning of life:

nor understand the nature of reality:

I do know physical death is not the end.

And there are so many amazing stories omitted so as not to break client confidentiality.

The second part I wrote as therapy and had not intended to include.

It wasn’t included in the original l publication

( I started shaking when I tried to write about the abuse so it is badly written and a great deal omitted)

In the following book I hope to help those who wish to develop their clairvoyant abilities.

In “The Clairvoyant Experiences Of A Sceptic” I told a few of my clairvoyant experiences.

Listening to others similar stories made me realize that

it is so much better if you can have these experiences first hand.

Kung fu tz  (Confucius) say “Perseverance prospers”

So don’t give up – you will succeed

And use the recorded meditations in my blog

A SHORT STORY ABOUT HEALING THE  BLUE PLANET

I wrote and published this sci fi short story a few years ago (under the above title) when the human population was only 7.4 billion:

(1st published 4th April 2017)

It is now  8 billion.

Our cultural norms and the Protestant Ethic are causing the extinction of all life.

I wrote this as social satire and sympathetic magic

I realize my writing style doesn’t fit what people expect

My excuse –I majored in sociology not literature 😛

I wanted to put my idea that humans are not indigenous to the planet

A few lines  from this short story:

“Most humans think that those who live in harmony with the environment are primitive and inferior. Actually they don’t think.

They just mindlessly conform to what those in power and their entertainment media tell them.

 They are really stupid but consider themselves superior to all other life forms because they talk:

They think if something or someone doesn’t talk they don’t understand.

They thoughtlessly destroy everything. They call some creatures vermin, when humans are the vermin. They kill insects and destroy all the trees despite the fact that insects and trees are essential.

And everything literally goes down the drain polluting the oceans instead of nourishing other life.”

I SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE —–

I am  now able to find and read  other people’s posts

I never received anything from WordPress at my Hotmail address

It has been like this  for years

WordPress ascertained the problem was with Outlook

In recent years I have had a gmail address –my son in law must have set it up for me

I didn’t use it

 I do now, as of today

 And already receiving posts

Love reading WordPress blogs

FREE CLAIRVOYANT READINGS (and mediumship)

Just send me healing energy as payment

my first great grandchild

I moved to a retirement village at the end of April 2023

When my youngest grandson came to visit with his partner and my first great grandchild he said “bet that you “see” heaps here” –

 I said

“I don’t see much at all”

I have seen one lady’s aura

And have done an email “reading” for a friend whose Dad died— was able to communicate with him

I have been doing readings since late nineteen seventies

I was trained by Spiritualists

I am able to communicate with those no longer in linear time

For divination

I use runes that my husband made in the days when there were no new age shops

I am offering free email readings to make myself use my clairvoyance

Send me healing or energy  as payment

Readings can be draining for me

Just give me your given name and no other information

In a culture where sociopaths succeed, psychopath are glorified, mindless automatons fit in and scams are rampant – I get why people are suspicious of something offered as free

Chronic pain mostly caused by surgical and medical mistakes has stopped my doing readings on a regular basis—I  am allergic to pain relief—

I love it when my clairvoyance flows clearly –although very fast 😛

Am hoping practice will bring this back

My motivation is to help people

Money  has never been my motivation even in the days when I was forced to get food parcels

Only one person in the village knows I am a clairvoyant and a witch

The majority of residents are religious

I respect this

But –say religion say fascism – means they do not respect that I don’t believe

I know that people are suspicious of anything free

TRUST YOUR GUT

Deepak Chopra

Said

 “Every cell in the body has neuropeptides –so every cell thinks

Better to trust your gut because it hasn’t learned to doubt what it thinks”

Send a recent photo of yourself  to

Katallen1949@gmail.com

MONEY

I don’t support insurance companies

 — they are sociopaths incorporated and fear based

—but I had to pay building insurance when my house was mortgaged

The insurance company came up with an excuse as to why they didn’t have to pay for this

In 1978 I was in a car accident where the traffic lights were out

—- my head went through the windscreen and I didn’t remember what happened—

initially I didnt know who i was or what i did –but did know that my children were in the car  and I was constantly asking after them – I later remembered my name but never remember the accident

When I was discharged from hospital the insurance company phoned me and said that the accident was my fault –had me sign paperwork and gave me an hundred dollars – I later found out that I was hit by a drunk driver speeding and would have been entitled to at least $10000 as would my children

In a culture where sociopaths succeed, psychopath are glorified, mindless automatons fit in and scams are rampant – I get why people are suspicious of something offered as free

Chronic pain mostly caused by surgical and medical mistakes has stopped my doing readings on a regular basis—

I am allergic to pain relief

I love it when my clairvoyance flows clearly –although very fast 😛

Am hoping practice will bring this back

Money  has never been my motivation even in the days when I was forced to get food parcels

See post FREE CLAIRVOYANT READINGS

as a child I tried to adhere to Ahimsa

a term and concept that I didn’t know then.

I respect all life:

excepting those humans that don’t respect other life forms.

I have studied psychology and sociology –

the nature/ nurture argument doesn’t explain why I think like I do?

 Certainly  wasn’t leaned behaviour

A “past life” maybe?

Although I may objectively understand why people are

 cruel

sadistic

Dishonest

jealous

steal

tell lies

con people

are two faced etc

I do not subjectively understand

I was labelled naive and gullible when I was younger

One of the good things that I have learned is that there are others who care about other life forms, the planet/ecology

and other humans

IF YOU ARE A MISFIT

YOU ARE PROBABLY AN ORIGINAL THINKER

I have had this picture for ages – cannot remember where i got it

I know I have reposted this often but it is uplifting to know that there are so many of us who don’t mindlessly conform to the status quo

I respect people’s right to believe as they choose

I do not argue with people about religion or politics

But two days ago a lady in my retirement village —who was a science teacher until retirement said to me that women’s liberation had caused more harm than good

Admittedly there are idiots who have taken it to ridiculous extremes — but all we wanted when I was in Women’s Liberation was equal rights

Women had the vote but could not have a bank account buy a house and landlords would not rent to women who had separated from their husband

A lawyer told me abuse wasn’t grounds for divorce

In our culture sociopaths succeed

Psychopaths are glorified

And mindless automatons fit it

HAIL TO THEE ORIGINAL THINKERS

I have deleted the video clip from The Matrix  but included the quote:

“Most of these people are not ready to be unplugged and many are so inured; so hopelessly dependant on the system that they will fight to protect it”

Original thinkers are no longer put to death

nor put in a mental institution:

they are just treated with contempt by mindless automatons.

Original thinkers see beyond their cultural programming:

OUR CULTURAL NORMS ARE MAKING ALL LIFE EXTINCT

The concept that only humans matter is so destructive to the ecology

chopping down trees:

culling other life forms because they are considered vermin or dangerous:

Destroying flora and fauna for real estate development:

thinking concrete is better than dirt:

refusing to implement zero population growth.

and so much more.

Life of Brian

Namaste

I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from chopra.com One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”

A SHORT STORY ABOUT HEALING THE  BLUE PLANET

I wrote and published this sci fi short story a few years ago (under the above title) when the human population was only 7.4 billion:

(1st published 4th April 2017)

It is now  8 billion.

Our cultural norms and the Protestant Ethic are causing the extinction of all life.

I wrote this as social satire and sympathetic magic

I realize my writing style doesn’t fit what people expect

My excuse –I majored in sociology not literature 😛

I wanted to put my idea that humans are not indigenous to the planet

A few lines  from this short story:

“Most humans think that those who live in harmony with the environment are primitive and inferior. Actually they don’t think.

They just mindlessly conform to what those in power and their entertainment media tell them.

 They are really stupid but consider themselves superior to all other life forms because they talk:

They think if something or someone doesn’t talk they don’t understand.

They thoughtlessly destroy everything. They call some creatures vermin, when humans are the vermin. They kill insects and destroy all the trees despite the fact that insects and trees are essential.

And everything literally goes down the drain polluting the oceans instead of nourishing other life.”

I SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE

I blame it on pain and sleep deprivation —affects my thinking

I never received anything from WordPress at my Hotmail address

It has been like this  for years

WordPress ascertained the problem was with Outlook

In recent years I have had a gmail address –my son in law must have set it up for me

I didn’t use it

 I do now, as of today

 And already receiving posts

Love reading WordPress blogs

LIFE AFTER DEATH

WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW

I have several friends who don’t believe in clairvoyance or surviving death

On the rare occasions I mention a clairvoyant experience that amazed me they just look at me with disdain or make some comment implying that I am either making it up or delusional

Although I dislike being “called” a liar (honesty is important to me)

these are true friends                    

 I don’t need them to believe me – I know it to be true

 so I tolerate their attitude.

People tend to believe that a belief in God and heaven is necessary for a belief in an “afterlife”

Surviving death isn’t synonymous with a religious belief.

We do not understand the nature of reality.

(or at least I don’t)

It appears we exist in an alternate reality when we are “not here”! In this reality the electrons are apparently moving at a different speed around the protons and neutrons so it is out of phase. ( This is my very limited understanding of quantum physics)

Another misconception is that people have to be “earth bound” to communicate with the living:

NOT SO!

I asked “clairvoyantly” about “the meaning of life” which strangely enough isn’t 42 (Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy)

The answer I got was more a concept than words but translated:

I was asked if I could conceptualize NO LINEAR TIME and when I said “No” I was told that “they” couldn’t explain.

We may all be in a huge holodeck:

As suggested by Star Trek Next Generation —

And  “What The Bleep”

“Ship In A Bottle” season six — Star Trek Next Geneeration

In the “special features” of What the “Bleep” they mention that Professor WilliamTiller gives the mathematical constructs of a hologram that we “are” living in.

(William A. Tiller is a professor emeritus of materials science and engineering at Stanford University)

Until the following I suspected clairvoyance was wishful thinking and vivid imagination

The incident that convinced me that clairvoyance was a reality happened at work. I was a student nurse at Strathmont Centre.  I was washing dishes with a male staff nurse. We didn’t have kitchen hands in those days.  Kym was six feet tall and rather heavy set and had long blonde hair. A man (deceased) flashed in (when I see or hear things they flash in a fraction of a second) He had Kym’s high forehead and similar features but wore a suit with a crepe ribbon and a cross and had a short back and sides haircut and dark hair.

I asked Kym if his father was a minister. He asked me why and initially I would not answer. I eventually told him what I saw and Kym told me that it was his uncle. He asked me what denomination his uncle was.

I did not know.

After Kym left the kitchen I asked his uncle, whom I could no longer “see”, what he had died of.  The words were that fast all I could make out was sclerosis. Because we were with the intellectually disabled I thought “tubular sclerosis?” Then I realized it was multiple sclerosis.

 When we were having a tea break Kym told me that his uncle died of multiple sclerosis. I was amazed and said that his uncle had “told” me this!

Kym said “Get more”! I informed him that I couldn’t.

But I saw panama hats and monkeys. I said “He was a missionary in South America” Kym said “Yes”. I then saw masks and a jungle and said he was also a missionary in New Guinea. Kym told me this wasn’t so.  When Kym came to work the next day, he said that his mother had confirmed that her brother was a missionary in New Guinea. This showed that I wasn’t just reading Kim’s mind.

NAMASTE

I love the meaning of this word

The quote is from chopra.com One of the most common translations of namasté is “The divine light in me bows to the divine light within you.”

The clairvoyant Experiences of a Sceptic is not a literary masterpiece

but a true story. I majored in sociology not literature

I dont know the meaning of life:

nor understand the nature of reality:

I do know physical death is not the end.

And there are so many amazing stories omitted so as not to break client confidentiality.

The second part I wrote as therapy and had not intended to include.

It wasn’t included in the original l publication

( I started shaking when I tried to write about the abuse so it is badly written and a great deal omitted)

In the following book I hope to help those who wish to develop their clairvoyant abilities.

In “The Clairvoyant Experiences Of A Sceptic” I told a few of my clairvoyant experiences.

Listening to others similar stories made me realize that

it is so much better if you can have these experiences first hand.

Kung fu tz  (Confucius) say “Perseverance prospers”

So don’t give up – you will succeed

And use the recorded meditations in my blog

A SHORT STORY ABOUT HEALING THE  BLUE PLANET

I wrote and published this sci fi short story a few years ago (under the above title) when the human population was only 7.4 billion:

(1st published 4th April 2017)

It is now  8 billion.

Our cultural norms and the Protestant Ethic are causing the extinction of all life.

I wrote this as social satire and sympathetic magic

I realize my writing style doesn’t fit what people expect

My excuse –I majored in sociology not literature 😛

I wanted to put my idea that humans are not indigenous to the planet

A few lines  from this short story:

“Most humans think that those who live in harmony with the environment are primitive and inferior. Actually they don’t think.

They just mindlessly conform to what those in power and their entertainment media tell them.

 They are really stupid but consider themselves superior to all other life forms because they talk:

They think if something or someone doesn’t talk they don’t understand.

They thoughtlessly destroy everything. They call some creatures vermin, when humans are the vermin. They kill insects and destroy all the trees despite the fact that insects and trees are essential.

And everything literally goes down the drain polluting the oceans instead of nourishing other life.”

FREE CLAIRVOYANT READINGS (and mediumship)

Just send me healing energy as payment

(If you have sent me an email and I haven’t replied it means that  I haven’t received it

Either message me or send to katallen1949@gmail.com )

Sending healing is a matter of intent

If you don’t think you can send healing

Please know  that you can

If you are more comfortable praying

Praying works

I took this picture a few weeks ago to show my daughter that the clothes I bought fitted me

I moved to a retirement village at the end of April 2023

When my youngest grandson came to visit with his partner and my first great grandchild he said “bet that you “see” heaps here” –

 I said

“I don’t see much at all”

I have seen one lady’s aura

And have done an email “reading” for a friend whose Dad died— was able to communicate with him

I have been doing readings since late nineteen seventies

I was trained by Spiritualists

I am able to communicate with those no longer in linear time

For divination

I use runes that my husband made in the days when there were no new age shops

I am offering free email readings to make myself use my clairvoyance

Send me healing or energy  as payment

Readings can be draining for me

Just give me your given name and no other information

I know that people are suspicious of anything free

TRUST YOUR GUT

Deepak Chopra

Said

 “Every cell in the body has neuropeptides –so every cell thinks

Better to trust your gut because it hasn’t learned to doubt what it thinks”

I have never thought like a WASP —white Anglo Saxon protestant

Nor agreed with the protestant ethic

Send a recent photo of yourself  to

Katallen1949@hotmail.com

A SHORT STORY ABOUT HEALING THE  BLUE PLANET

I wrote and published this sci fi short story a few years ago (under the above title) when the human population was only 7.4 billion:

(1st published 4th April 2017)

It is now  8 billion.

Our cultural norms and the Protestant Ethic are causing the extinction of all life.

I wrote this as social satire and sympathetic magic

I realize my writing style doesn’t fit what people expect

My excuse –I majored in sociology not literature 😛

I wanted to put my idea that humans are not indigenous to the planet

A few lines  from this short story:

“Most humans think that those who live in harmony with the environment are primitive and inferior. Actually they don’t think.

They just mindlessly conform to what those in power and their entertainment media tell them.

 They are really stupid but consider themselves superior to all other life forms because they talk:

They think if something or someone doesn’t talk they don’t understand.

They thoughtlessly destroy everything. They call some creatures vermin, when humans are the vermin. They kill insects and destroy all the trees despite the fact that insects and trees are essential.And everything literally goes down the drain polluting the oceans instead of

In the following book I hope to help those who wish to develop their clairvoyant abilities.

In “The Clairvoyant Experiences Of A Sceptic” I told a few of my clairvoyant experiences.

Listening to others similar stories made me realize that

it is so much better if you can have these experiences first hand.

Kung fu tz  (Confucius) say “Perseverance prospers”

So don’t give up – you will succeed

And use the recorded meditations in my blog

The clairvoyant Experiences of a Sceptic is not a literary masterpiece

but a true story. I majored in sociology not literature

I dont know the meaning of life:

nor understand the nature of reality:

I do know physical death is not the end.

And there are so many amazing stories omitted so as not to break client confidentiality.

The second part I wrote as therapy and had not intended to include.

It wasn’t included in the original l publication

( I started shaking when I tried to write about the abuse so it is badly written and a great deal omitted)